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okay girlies i have a question for you all :)

so, i have been diagnosed with ednos for four years (wow, that sounds like a very long time) and I have always been very good with self control. as of late though, i have gained 7 pounds and am extremely unhappy with how i look. i have gone from 101 pounds to 108, and i wasnt even happy at 101.

so i decided, for the first time, to go on a liquid fast. in the past i would just do a lot of restricting or fasting in general but i have never done this. so...are there any things that i should or shouldnt drink?? and is it bad to drink things with a high amount of calories in them, because i have always told myself i would never drink my calories. (and also, ladies...im passing off this fast to my bf of 1 1/2 years who knows about my disorder as a toxic cleansing fast, so drink that sound healthy please)

thanks so much <3

I saw that there was a binge-free month challenge going on, I might join in on that but starting from today because i obviously missed the first day or so. I had such a bingey day yesturday and i'm sick of days like that. 

Consequently I'm up to 102.2 lbs this morning. I'm going to try and restrict to around 400-500 cals for that next few days and see what happens. Its more than I want to eat in an ideal world, but I'm working 6hrs tonight, 6 hrs friday night, and 6 hrs sunday night, so I'll need to have energy  to keep up and about on my feet that long. I've only just started working here and  i dont want to look like I can't handle the late nights and get fired.  I need the money, really.

On a positive note, I am liking my new job. I went out for a couple of drinks with the rest of my co-workers the other day and I felt really happy with them. They're all a bit older than me but they don't appear to let this bother them. This is fresh start moving here, new job, new friends (when i moved i knew no one in the area), new college soon. I'm hoping all these changes will have a positive affect on the bulimia recovery front, none of these people know how fucked up I've been in the past. They all think i'm just a normal girl living her life, trying to make a future for herself,  and its quite nice to be thought of that way. Maybe I don't have to be so fucked up to be noticed. its not something that i've considered before

hope everyone else is having a god day.

Don't give up girlies! We CAN do this!

I know it's bad but i was just wondering..Do laxatives help you lose weight? or are they a bunch of kanoodle like everyone says...?

Take care lovelies. x

So, it's one day into the anti-binge challenge, and I thought I'd check in (I'll try and do this daily). I'm amazed at how many of you wanted to do this- I think there are seventeen of us total- so I hope you're all doing a great job one day into a month free of binging. Of course, if you slip up, you can just challenge yourself to restart that month today and go one day longer in the end.

I made it through the first day without any binges. I did eat just a tad more than I wanted to (two cookies at a meeting), but it wasn't out of control at all, so no binge. I'm probably still at less than 1,200 cals for the day, if I estimate everything really generously (probably closer to 900). Day one in the bag, and working on day two of thirty one.

I've been thinking about how I should define a binge for myself for this challenge. I think that I will define it as one of two things: a) eating until I am fairly well past full or b) eating more than 1/3 of the amount of calories I would need in one day to maintain my weight. So for me, eating more than 700 calories in one sitting would be an automatic binge, no matter how full I feel. You're all welcome to come up with whatever definition of "binge" you want for yourself, but I wanted to be careful not to define normal eating habits as a binge for this challenge. The idea, I think, is to avoid self-destructing by going way far in the wrong direction.

Good luck to you all for day two! Let us know how you are all doing!

Something that I've been thinking about a lot lately is getting a breast reduction.
I'm 21, 5'3", 121lbs and I'm a 34D... due to my smaller stature... I appear to have HUGE boobs, especially when I wear bathing suits / tight shirts. I'm tired of the looks, my back hurting, the annoyance of running... etc.
I can't help but think that a breast reduction would help me appear thinner and also make me lose weight.
[I know that going down a cup size will instantly drop at least 5lbs. tits are heavy man.]
I'd love love to just be a C....
I would also love to go running in comfort and not have my back hurt all the time =[.

What do you guys think ? Does anyone have any similar situations / experiences ?

a friend and I are interested in doing the foundation level of this detox cleanse and I'm hoping to get the 8+ person discount:

blueprintcleanse.com

would anyone want to get in on this?

Today is one of those days where no matter what I do, I am always feeling hungry.

Anyone else have days like that? Normally one of those slim quick packets takes the edge off, but that isn't even working. I have to stay strong today.

I need to find something that I can use to really kill off my appetite!

Hope everyone is doing well today, let's help each other get through today!

i got my first paycheck and im going to try and get a scale for my bathroom
it would be better for me than a pair of vans
im just kinda worried because my mom wants to put my money (from now on) into a bank account.... and forgive me if i sound stupid, but if i get a debit card and put all/most of my money onto it, will she know of my purchases?

how about this scale.. i know its not much but i cant spend like a fortune and i dont want to save up:

http://www.bedbathandbeyond.com/product.asp?order_num=-1&SKU=14634762&RN=444

http://www.bedbathandbeyond.com/product.asp?order_num=-1&SKU=14162844&RN=444
i really like that one ^ it would help with water weight and bmi, i think, etc.

I wish I didn't have a full time job. I wish I didn't have to start 3 classes on top of that for Tues and Thurs mornings before work and Thurs nights. I feel like I have no time to exercise. If I did have time than I would have no life. I would wake up, go to work, work out and go to sleep and then repeat. I can't do that, I can't be more miserable than I already am. How do people who are busy find a balance for this bullshit? I wish I could work out for 2 hrs a day and lay on the beach the rest of the day. It's effing summer!

Hi everyone,

I went kinda AWOL for about 2 months, during and after my exams, and they kinda screwed me over. I toyed with the idea of coming back for a few weeks but couldn't really muster up the courage because I'm now fatter than I was so I was ashamed, and also because some things on this site were extremely triggering for me. But all my attempts at getting back on track failed without the support I had here. So anyway I'm back, I need the support and I'm totally determined. =]

I started a fast yesterday, just passed the 24hr mark. There's no definite end so far in sight, I'm just going as long as I feel like.

Would anybody else be interested in a challenge group with a goal of not binging for a month? Not a group trying to restrict so much as a group trying to avoid overeating at all?

I've been having a terrible time not defeating myself with random large binges, and I could use something to help keep me on track.

If anyone else feels the same way, let me know!

Binge-free for a month? I want to prove to myself that I can do it.